Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Second Thoughts

I'm beginning to feel that maybe the cake business is not for me. It was fun for a while, and it was exciting, but the more serious it gets the less enjoyable it is to me. I don't know if it's because I'm just a flake who never finishes anything she starts or if it's because I want the freedom to pick and choose the types of things I want to do.

I don't know if I want to do this much longer.


  1. It's hard to do what you love as a job, because it can get tedious and overwhelming and frustrating. If that happens with a job you don't care about you always have your passion to fall back on, but when something you love is really annoying, it can really drag you down.

    But seriously, what the fuck would you be doing if you weren't making cakes, Not making cakes? Psh. Yeah, let me know how that turns out :P

  2. I know it's a bonus when you can making money doing what you love. Not many people can say that, and it's truly a miracle when you can making a living with your passion.

    The dark side of that is feeling like a whore when you're on a job that is NOT fulfilling at all, or your client is a total asshole and treating you like paid help.

    Ironically, a chef is nothing more than paid help, but I've rarely encountered complete jackasses over the years. I've hit a few jerks now and again in my culinary adventures; whether they were other chefs or line cooks or customers- a jerk is a jerk. And I've had the luxury of being able to walk away.

    But, when your livelihood depends on getting paid by that jackass, it's harder to walk away because principals don't pay the creditors.

    This is too long for a comment. To sum it all up, I think I mentioned what happened with that cake on Long Island last Saturday. It's a rare thing, but when it happens, it makes me want to throw my pastry bag in their WASP faces and walk off, flipping them the bird.

  3. I guess you'll just have to pick and choose your clients, develop a good asshole radar, and lay down some rules about who should pay for cakes in what circumstances. I think your cakes are good enough and it sounds like you're getting enough clients to do that.

  4. Right now, since I still have my day job, I guess I still have the option of picking and choosing my clients. To be quite frank, the most problems I've had have been with people who were supposed to be my "friends".

    I get it that people will be angry with me if I fuck up. It's a given. I just don't condone rude, childish, and overly passive aggressive behavior using that justification. I expect more out of a stay-at-home mom who boasts 24/7 about bringing up her kids "right".

    There's nothing right about being a complete cunt over a mistake that she probably made to begin with. I'd rather someone cut ties with me completely and never speak to me again rather than keeping a false friendship open just to have the opportunity to slip in catty, immature & retarded behavior.

  5. When you no longer enjoy what you're doing, it's time to stop doing it. But, before walking away, stop and make sure you understand what it is that's keeping you from enjoying what you love. Getting to the root of the problem will save you a lot of stress.